Tomorrow may be World Cancer Day but for me, it’s every day. My uncle passed away in November from stage 4 colon cancer and life hasn’t quite been the same. Everyday, there’s a constant dragging in my heart, reminding me that he’s gone.

I watched him suffer, I watched him die day by day. The cancer had begun to leak out of his skin and out of certain other places. He had suffered a stroke as well and refused to eat, telling his own mother that she had poisoned his food. I had never seen him like that, it was unreal. Some days he knew who we were and other days, we weren’t as lucky. Each day that passed, he talked less and less. Shaking all through the day, the shakes were so bad. On the morning he left us, we got really sick and threw up on himself and then, it was over.

I remember getting the call at 8:30 in the morning that he had just passed. I raced to the nursing home as fast as I could and sat by his bed. He was still warm. I kept telling myself he would wake up and none of this was real but that day, I went home. And he went free.

That morning as I was leaving the nursing home, a swarm of blackbirds flew over the nursing home, as if to carry him with them to wherever they went. Or so I had hoped. Today, I have a those blackbirds tattooed on my shoulder just as I remember them.

It was the first time I had ever experienced death and it was frightening. I had nightmares about it for weeks on end. Little by little, things are starting to heal but never fully.

 Now I just hope that I can keep the memory of my uncle alive for as long as I can.

Cancer is terrible and it can happen to anyone. 

Source: staplenews.com 
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Today is a lazy day for me.

I have a 2 liter bottle of Koolaid and a bag of popcorn.

I don’t need anything else except a nap.

(Source: hereisours, via taylersometimes)

28 Days Later.

1 Big Mistake.

I had been seeing the words “1 Man 1 Jar” floating around the internet a lot lately. Having seen “2 girls 1 cup”, I was certain that it would be something like that.

I hadn’t asked anyone what it was about. Big mistake.

What I saw, made me literally squeal and turn away from the monitor. I had tears in my eyes. 

Usually, I can deal with bizzare and disturbing things. To me “2 girls 1 cup” wasn’t that gross. All I could focus on was how dumb the music was. It was just shit and puke.

But this…. this was…no.

Stop asking people “Are you a boy or a girl?”

The correct way to figure out someone’s gender is

“What pronouns do you prefer?”

Uneventful Things Happening Between 12-3AM:

1. Watched YouTube clips of dancing grandmas, asians and parody music videos.
2. Shuffled naked in my kitchen.
3. I gotz booty.
4. Rapped to “Rack City” in the shower/ re-enacted the shower scene from “Easy A”.
5. Surfed bizzare porn.
6. Watched “Sexy and I know it” atleast 12 times.
7. Daydreamed about random things.

My life is boring.

(Source: tyler-shields)

THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN SAID TO ME DURING SEX…

1. Well, I see where you get your good looks from (referring to my mom)
2. I shouldn’t be doing this. I have a girlfriend.
3. I usually just hit it and quit it
4. Are those real?
5. It’s too tight, it kinda hurts my dick.
6. Are you enjoying this?
7. What did you say your name was again?
8. So should I call you or no?
9. Can I bring my friend in?
10. My mom will be home soon, so let’s make this fast.
11. I’m….a virgin.
12. I think I feel your cervix.
13. That is insatiable. 
14. You’re so young.
15. Where’d the condom go?

THINGS I’VE SAID DURING SEX.

1. Well that was fast.
2. Yeah you’re small but most people don’t want a big one anyway.
3. Are you in? (same person)
4. You still have some growing to do, don’t worry.
5. Your Dad is pretty hot.
6. Can I stick this in your ass?
7. OMG. STOP. I can feel you up in my ribs! 
8. Yeah…this isn’t going to work.
9. Congratulations. You’re not a virgin anymore.
10. Well that was fun but I have to go now.
11. So are you sure that you and your wife aren’t getting back together?
12. I think we should see other people.
13. Do I smell popcorn?
14. I feel like I’m going to puke.
15. Why am I upside down?
16. Your cat is staring at me.

A MIX OF THE TWO…

1. Don’t feel bad, everybody looks funny naked.
2. Do you accept visa?
3. My ex used to do that too.
4. When is this supposed to start feeling good?
5. Did I remember to take my pill?
6. What tampon?
7. I have a confession…
8. You’re a grow-er not a show-er.
9. That’s what she said.
10.  Did you come yet?
11. I’ll tell you who I’m fanatasizing about if you tell me who you’re fantasizing about..
12. How long do you plan to be “almost there”?
13. Have you ever considered liposuction?
14. Remind me to call my girlfriend.

I feel like this is directed at me (:

(Source: optimus-primer, via coloredfeather-deactivated20120)

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